There will always be those people in our inner sanctum, whether they get there because they intend to or not…but they are there. Only a handful ever get there in your life and you know who they are, even if they don’t know it themselves; they are naturally part of you. Some are always destined to be close but never quite at ‘that’ level and some will very much always teeter on the edge. Then there are some that will forget that you ever exist because they have things in their life that take priority, which happens; be it work, new partner or plain ignorance.
It seems as though the weekend has finally caught up with me and coincidentally I’ve run out of anti-sickness tablets too. It’s only a week until the clinic appointment and as I’ll be getting the chemo tablets then anyway, I might as well just wait and get them in one swoop, they don’t decrease the nauseous feelings all the time anyway, so chances are I won’t even notice them missing.
The whole ‘it’s stabilised’ description still isn’t ringing true with me though; that may be what they’re seeing on paper, but it’s not what I’m feeling. I’ve said it before, but I just need some sort of clear prognosis, a timespan, just anything to give me some end to it all. I can’t put on the less than convincing act for much longer- it wears me out.
Still sending you healing hopeful thoughts:)
Then there are some that will forget that you ever exist because they have things in their life that take priority, which happens; be it work, new partner or plain ignorance.
– Perhaps they aren’t able to support you at the level that they would like. Perhaps they have lived through similar experiences with other people and are not in a position to relive that.
Perhaps they sympathize with your situation, but don’t know how to show it. Perhaps jumping to conclusions is wrong, and actually misdirected anger at Clive?
Your approach here is wrong.
My advice to you is that acceptance is a two way street. Anger should be directed appropriately.
If you are so evidently hoping for a terminal prognosis, perhaps burning bridges is not your best course of action. Start setting a memory of the character you have that we all remember in stone.