For what it’s worth, I did the final stages of the blue badge today, it will save some money in the hospital and I suppose it will make it easier for everyone else. It’s all in the hands of the council, so it’s down to them when it arrives.

I can’t do too much more for the auction; everything is pretty much going to be as it will be. There’s about 16 items that I’ve got so far, with more promised and not given (sounds familiar….,) plus Tony says that he has more..but no idea what they, if anything, they are.

The unoffical target is close, but I doubt it will be hit before the auction..it may do though. No targets have been put on anything thinking about it; less dissapointment in everyone’s life if there’s nowhere to aim towards.

Sally says she is sending out some T-Shirts with the promo stuff for Tony to put on while he is doing the auctioneering, so hopefully some pictures will make it onto the site and people who didn’t bother with the Facebook invite/page/anything (they know who they are) will see sense and donate. In the promotional thing, I hope some more pots are included….I’m still waiting, even after several messages, to get one back; it might have no money inside but there might not. I have no way of knowing until it gets returned.


I’m glad the auction is near; it gives something to focus on. It doesn’t always haopen that way and there’s certainly a lot of ‘why do I bother’ thoughts running through my head but all in all, if the night sends people away thinking of my mortality then all is good.

I don’t anticipate much more than Christmas if I’m putting a timescale on it. The hospital have said longer but taking the symptoms and how they have progressed into account, I’ll be surprised if I last the year.

I’m not booking anything past the date they have given me for obvious reasons; it seens pointless, as does buying anyrhing to ‘keep’. What’s the point? It’ll only need to be disposed of or sold, so it’s either given away or not brought. For the sake of the money I’ve written myself out of the Birmingham Half; it’s only £30 and more hassle doing something about it than leaving it and not being there. It’s hardly like I’m going to be missed…..and I doubt at the run either.


I’ve spilt Morphine leaving me with just enough to tide me over, it leaves a terrible smell, but it’s my own doing. It’s only for pain relief and if worst comes to worse, I’ve got some Solpadol as backup…both of which I can stock up on when in clinic.

I can’t see the point in the late effects appointment at all; what’s the point talking about Fred when Clive is their main point of interest? Well, Clive and the bleed, but again, I won’t know anything until the day after what’s happening with that, so a bit of a pointless appointment. It might be the last one though and once it’s done it’s out of the way and who knows, I might get some answers from it….

Getting things sorted for the auction might give me more of a focus; I’ve been getting bits and bobs for it and it seems as though Tony has been doing a lot behind the scenes too. It should raise a lot of money and at least some, if not lots, of awareness.

My leg has been all over the place this morning. It’s been less responsive and like a useless appendage for a while now, but this morning, there was a hell of a lot of pain, mostly in the right side. It could be anything causing it and it seems to be easing off a little now, but if it’s like that every day, it’s another tick in the other column.